karma flashbacks

feel a little better today but still have flashes of anger, still adjusting and part of me just wants to "adjust" out of NYC because it just feels like "too much corruption" and it feels like "very organized crime" with all the laws protecting the greedy, destructive forces and how appropriate the buildings are mirrored -- a narcissist's wet dreams.

I always laugh because the biggest narcissists are the one's that use that word to accuse people as if accusing someone else gives them a vacation of their ugly reality  of their sick obsession with themselves.   So put it this way they have a love hate relationship in an extreme way.

Welcome to the new hideous new york....the most radical make over take over....

9-11 was impossible to get my mind around but so is still --